UPDATE ! !

I haven't posted a blog in a long time, and there are plentyyy of new things going on with me.


For one, my hair turned out well. It's not as gross as I thought.
For another, g u y s. I'm headed into a different pool hahha.
SUMMER IS ALMOST OVER! It's been greaaat! One of the best in a while.
I've done a bunch of memorable things .

But, summer is soon to be a part of the past. And I have to think about the future now. My goal is to figure out what I want to do in life, and I know there are tonsss of possibilities. I need to get going on that english assignment =( this is the beginning of a year where I'll push myself. I need to keep them boyss to the side. I need to be on time errry'day for school lol.
Well, it's been a wonderrrfull summer.

I WILL SUCCEED, and I WONT tolerate dumb b!tches who try to interfere with my plans.

Miracle Worker

While roaming through the 99 cent movie aisle at blockbuster, i found a lot of things i've ALREADY seen, and things i didn't even care to see. So anyways, I found the movie called 'The miracle worker', and thought it'd be interesting because it has that one girl that used to play in those old coca cola or pepsi commercials haha. Anyways, it was really good!!! This little girl played a blind girl's role (supposed to be about Helen Keller). So yeah, it's an old film but i recommend you to watch it.


Now ME. hmmm, I'm gonna be gone to my cousin's for a while. My hair cut is effing nasty, and no one's had the time to help me dye it yet. I'm praaaaaying it'll look decent once it's dyed. Yup, well that's it for now.

T00TLES ! :D

I'm a jerk .

Todaaaay was a good daaay.
But, some things weren't of my approval.




Whyyyy do guys affect me so much?
There are some good guys out there but I don't want them. Only because my door will only be open for one, the one that doesn't want me back. There's a bestie I'm afraid to have turn more than just a friendship, another who always tries talking to me, and another who's actually a reeeally sweet guy but idk how not to sound like a total bitch and tell him I won't be interested.
I'm so srry I'm such a jerk off.



IIIIIIIIII
HAAAAATEEEEE
MYYYYYYYYYYYYY
EFFFFINGGGGGGGGGG
SEEELFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Whyyyy the fuck does life work this way.

I wish i could just forget .

Just sayin'

Buttyyy, I miss you :/


like hell, even though you've forgotten about me..

I don't bleed, but I keep dreaming Love.

Last night, I had a dream.

A dream of my fantasies, my wishes, my desires, & my Love.

Tooooo dang bad it was just a dream.

I hate having dreams that just seem so real you can almost
taste it, touch it, and smell it.

Untill you're awaken by a text that's not even from the person of your dreams.

You did this, I did that

We saw and talked to each other everyday, I miss that.

We shared our curious thoughts, I miss that.
We had common interests, I miss that.
We discussed our future, I miss that.
We had restless nights due to over-texting, I miss that.
We sent texts where smiling was inevitable, i miss that.
We were both happy, I miss that.
We were both caught up, I miss that.
You gave me one glance and I'd automatically smile, I miss that.
You gave me names that no one else referred to me as, I miss that.
You were never boring to talk to, I miss that.
You made cute little noises over the phone, I miss that.
You had this masculine yet sensitive touch, I miss that.
You had a mature-outlook on life, I miss that.
You had this cute little laugh, I miss that.
You had a smile that I named the best, I miss that.
You had a scent you carried that i could easily distinguish, I miss that.
You made me feel wanted, I miss that.
You made me feel appreciated, I miss that.
You made me feel right at home, I miss that.
You made me feel important, I miss that.
You made me feel beautiful, I miss that
You made me believe in the impossible, I miss that.
You made me feel safe, I miss that.
You made me want to be better, I miss that.
You always told me i was loved, I miss that.
You were always there to talk to, I miss that.
You were always there to vent to, I miss that.

You showed me there was hope, I miss that.
You showed me a priceless gift, I miss that.
You showed me that chances don't come around often, I miss that.
You showed me excitement, I miss that.
You showed me I could do anything I set my mind to, I miss that.
You showed me that I could love again, I miss that.

& Most important of all, You showed me that the person I least expected to hurt me, could hurt me in such a way one can't fathom.

Live & Learn .

I've been able to maintain a balanced life. Through all struggles, there's always a light pointing me in the right direction.

Today, the first thing i did was go to driver's ed. I drove on the free way for the first time :O Hey, I thought I did alrightt. The instructor makes me feel all tensed up and nervous though, ugh. I was so glad when it was finally over.

And then I hung out with the guy who 'gets silly' lmaooo. He let me drive everywhere! For like two hours. I felt sooo free and relaxed. I could nottt stop talking though. I mean, i almost drove off the road a few times but hey, i must've been a pretty decent driver or else he wouldn't have let me drive the whole day xD. And then I ate at red robins. I didn't know if I'd like it much because my first encounter wasn't that great. It was mm'mm gooood though. Again, thanks for paying for me; me and my jobless butt. lol. Then I drove us to Joann fabrics and I bought 'somethingg' so I could make my bestie a birthday present when his birthday comes around. (shhh, he won't know unless he reads this. ha.)
So I got home and my madre and sister were bothering me -_- I went into my room hoping to make that present, but I didn't have any string left. So I just slept.

When I woke up, I felt a quick wave of overwhelming sadness. It didn't make sense to me.

Why was I feeling that way? What was I thinking about? Or maybe not what, but whom. Eh, enough about that. Anyways world, I'm doing quite well, living with my head held up. A wise word to all- Appreciate the things and people you have, and are uncontrollably surrounded by. Do not take things for granted and do not ask for more.

I'm such an ammature

So, I just created this blog. I was completely confused on how these things work! Like WHAAT is a blog title? And whaaat do I put for the Url? Fortunately, I figured it out. At first I didn't know and named my blog title 'To the beginning of blogs' thinking it was for posting xD. But oh well, I'll change it later. Today was another day at home. I stayed up late last night on Mymomisafob.com and Fmylife.com. I showed the site to my new friend Eric, who will now call me Princess, as well as everyone else ;D hahah. I watched Tuck Everlasting, which was a sweet little movie, and Obsessed today. That lady was craaaazy, dawg ! I wonder if people get that obsessed. haha. Welp, another dumb day of driver's ed ahead. -_-